You will be mine, oh yes, you will be mine!

I haven’t been on here in a looooooong time. Might as well update. I am finding that semester 1 of my second year has been a little less enjoyable compared to last year. I am currently up on an all nighter trying to get a fecking business report finished which is proving to be a chore. My lecturer very nicely gave me an extra day to complete it. As long as I can get it printed off and submitted I am going to either get some rest after or dive into some gaming. Dream Theater will continue to be my soundtrack of choice. Ok report. You are gonna get the shit completed out of you!!!

It’s a new month. I yet again find myself with the fucking cold again. Sorry germs but I in no way feel the attraction you would seem to have for me to infect me a second month running.

I in no way believe in New Year resolutions but I reckon I shall try and step up to the challenge of trying to be a bit more upbeat as I feel as my patience has been very thin recently, As a result I have maybe been blunt with people around me. I think this is down to being a pushover and basically just having the piss taken out of me. Which leads me to the next thing I would like to change about myself in the near future. I am simply not going to put up with people’s bullshit anymore. If you let me down or I feel you are taking the piss out of me then that’s it, I will simply sever ties with you and that will be it. There isn’t any fucking point in putting yourself out there and giving if people manipulate that. I am done with it! I always seem to revert back but I have simply had all that I can stomach so no second chances. 1 trike and you are out!! ON YOUR ASS!!!!!!

Christmas is nearly here which means I shall have to get shopping done. I would make a day of it and it’s not like I have far to travel (downstairs and across the road). I think I shall just use the online mega store that is Amazon for christmas shopping this year. Sorted :D

Now…Back to drawing :)

I think I will see into getting one of these after Christmas. :)

Do uni work!!! Got Interactive design work, Flash and Business Management work to do. I’m not sure what one I will do first??? >.<

I find my room is always a mess…Always no matter if I tidy it. I must try and get into the way of doing work at my desk as opposed to on my bed. I think a big tidy will be in order. As far as being angry from being let down these past few days, I probably will still get annoyed in small drabs but it’s really wasted energy I could put into more productive things.

For a laugh I think I will then see how many hours I can complete Call Of Duty 4 in. I have royally went off of the franchise as I find the community for the game is mainly children or people that buy their (MODDED) Controllers from Ebay as well as the single player always being too short. In my opinion Battlefield Bad Company 2 is a much better game. I actually can’t believe I am going to buy it again for the PS3. Anyways without doddling off topic COD 4, I aim to do you in 4 hours. Though I shall only undergo this task if I get a suitable amount of uni work done.

I was right! Cancelled. Nevermind, Guess I shall just not fucking bother trying anymore. The fact honesty didn’t come into the topic as well :s As lovely as you all are my faith in women has completely gone. No I am not turning gay before anyone thinks about saying that either!

I really don’t see why females have to play stupid little games. What?! You think cuz I am studying to be a games designer I like any type of game? Well when it messes me around and puts me in a fucking bad mood that’s where I draw the line!!!!

I am now going to try and see if I can see the word ‘MUG’ written on my forehead!

MAJOR DISAPPOINTED!!!!

thedicewoman asked: remember the cake incident? :)

Hell yeah!!! Was a mouthful! :p

Why can’t I sleep? Usually the answer is related to the fact that I am living in a flat across from a pub. Not tonight. My mind is thinking of a million things at once it would seem. What I was reasured was fine I am not so sure is?I reckon I have developed severe trust issues.

Wouldn’t be so bad if it weren’t for the fact that I was knackered earlier. Constant yawning and the feeling of being weak. Now I can’t seem to drift off. DAMN YOU BRAIN!!!! Never mind I shall be boozing tomorrow so that shall help in getting some sleep.

Upside of today wass that I got to do more 3D modelling work in Maya. Basic things but learning about the program a lot better than the year before. Here’s to many more models being made.

Loking forward to the weekend. I just hope that it goes according to plan…

The wait for being disappointed is almost over I feel. Will this tip me into the point of being a comeplete stand off? Have to say that I am really fed up of being let down. I aim to please and sometimes I feel that going above and beyond isn’t enough for some people. Maybe cuz I am a simple natured person people feel the need to patronise me? Maybe I am paranoid? Gotta love it when your brain asks 20 million questions and paints out dissatisfying scenarios. Maybe I am being objective to the point that I am never going to feel disappointed? I always seem to end up feeling that way regardless of my pesimism. Hopefully helping my friend move in will subside this fucking dull mood I seem to be in?If not it will be day 2 of drowning my sorrows in alcohol.

Even though I hate women right now I still like you…